Another wet, cool day here. I am so very tired of this weather, but when I complain, I only have to think of those who have lost everything with the tornadoes, floods, fires, earthquakes, volcanoes..... and I am humbled and know that a little rain and cool temps won't hurt me at all. So, I will stop complaining about the weather!
My little pots of flowers and veggies are coming along nicely. The peas are up and the tomatoes are doing well. Many of the containers of flowers are doing very well too. Some didn't come up at all, but then I was using old seeds...
I have been fighting severe anxiety lately. I KNOW I need to trust and rest in Jesus, but for some reason, I've just not been able to do it. I am trying so hard.
I think it may be that there are so many things going on right now. Things that are totally out of my control. It appears that the state is finally moving on the bridge project and they set out markers yesterday. The temporary easement is 18 feet from our house. The permanent one is about 22 feet. They will take ALL the trees and hedge out in front (facing the road) (a state hwy-very busy) and we will be like sitting ducks for all to view. I am very distressed about this. We will also loose all our shade trees. The safety issue bothers me greatly. We have had several fatal accidents in front of and near our home and with no trees, they will be in our house. My brother is coming in June and we will all have a meeting with the state to start negotiations with them. Nothing is in stone yet. We were hoping that they would buy us out rather than leave us just feet from the work zone (two years of noise and activity). I am not sure either one of us can handle it. Noise is not a good thing for either of us. Please pray for us.
I hurt my arm earlier this month and it is healing slowly. The doc thinks I strained a muscle. It's been very painful.
I am going to have my knee replacement sometime this summer. It has gotten to the point of no return.
I've been fighting the fatigue and more pain as of late. I am pushing to do some of the things I value and of course I am paying for it, but its worth it. I went to the school for grandparents day and had a wonderful time. We have been watching gkids often and carting them to activities too. This is such a busy time for all the adults with school grinding to an end. We have three birthdays in May. (grand kids) The ballet recital is coming up as is the music recital. I try to attend them.
I did have a wonderful visit with my counselor and she helped me put things into perspective. She is a fantastic Christian woman.
As you can tell from this post, part of my trouble is that I can't keep a thought long enough to do anything with it...
I've been having fun watching the birds and squirrels in our yard.
And I'm doing my very best to rest in the arms of Jesus and allow Him to take my burdens and hold them for me.
Blessings to you all,